UNDESERVING

Jesus, I know I've let you down with my spending and eating issues these past few weeks. I'm losing weight, so I should be happy, but I am angry with myself. I've lied to those around me to get enough money to live on, I can't concentrate on my studies, I ate a huge meal that would feed 3 people all by myself. I am disgusted with myself. Feel so desperate, I keep wanting to rub acid into my skin to stop feeling so helpless and scared. I don't want to commit suicide, but I'm scared of my parents finding out i'm in trouble again- my bank are angry with me- i was so desperate i had a panic attack today, and have told so many lies. I deserve to get found out, but I can't tell anyone the truth, and I am too ashamed to tell anyone at Church 'cos they might get freaked out with me like they did before. I know you forgive those who repent, but I am addicted to food and can't change by myself. Help me God, I've been saved but maybe I haven't tried hard enough..... I want to do this degree, but feel as if dark forces want to stop me. Please don't kill my Mum, I don't wish her dead, I just don't deserve her, she's lovely. i DON'T WANT TO HURT ANYMORE. How long before my life falls apart again. HELP ME,

Submitted by C on 4 Apr 2007

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Dear father, pl. pray for my husband because he is aditated the alcohol. he is ego person not only that he is very angry person. so that I am left out his house for the past 3 months. pl.pray for my good family life

Submitted by B.Antony Priya on 4 Apr 2007

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My husband and my adult daughter are both addicted to crack cocaine. It is going on 4 years. My husband treats my son who is now 23 like garbage, and pretends to be a christian. My little girl who is 5 doesn't even think he is her daddy anymore because he looks so different and acts different and talks different. I need help Lord. I can't handle this alone. He needs to stop, My adult daughter is a beautiful girl with a good head on her shoulders, she can do so much more please stop her please lord God don't let any of the drugs my husband or adult daughter do effect them, make it so they do not get high from the drugs. Please help God. This is getting harder, I can't even talk to the pastor about this for fear of losing my home. Please God help help help, lord you know my heart. You know my family, Lord I pray your blood over us. I pray that you fix the problems. My help comes from you lord, as I cannot even talk to my pastor, You are all I have, which is far greater than anything else anyhow so please help.I need peace in the midst of this storm. a 4 year battle. Lord you know I lost my grand daughter because of my daughters problems. Please help Lord Please.

Submitted by Pamela on 3 Apr 2007

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I would like to add my son Aaron on the prayer list please! We have been astranged from one another for a few years now. He has taken his own path with drugs and pornography. He is only 25. He was arrested in Jan. of this year and is still incarcerated awaiting charges. I just found out that he has been in trouble 4 years now and no contact from his mother until now. That is a long prayer answered. He wants to know more about the lord and he is in need of a rehab as opposed to prison. I truly want God's will in this matter. Thank you in Christs Name Pappy

Submitted by Pappy Miller on 3 Apr 2007

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Lord, help her please. Help my mum break free from the drink. Only you know her heart Father, I can't begin to imagine, but whatever is there that needs healing, well you're the only doctor there is. Help her rely completely on you, and you only. Lord help me forgive her for the pain that it has caused. Don't let me be bitter. Help me to forgive even when I can't see that she's sorry. Help me to love unconditionally even when it feels like she doesn't love me. Give me your heart Father, and in your mercy release her from the clutches of alcohol. I praise you Lord that you know this situation better than I, and that you understand just how I feel. You know my pain, you know mums pain and you know how to resolve everything. Thankyou so much. Amen

Submitted by Claire on 29 Mar 2007

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I would like to encourage all of those who are trying to give up smoking. Hold on !! I know how difficult it is to quit - especially if you try it all by yourself (with your own strengths) I tried quitting a lot of times previously, but failed every time... But the moment Jesus came into my life... all changed. He gave me self-control and strength, and He even took away the cravings! Yesterday the 21st March, was 2 months since my last cigarette! All the glory and honour and praise to Jesus!

Submitted by Elaine on 22 Mar 2007

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I just wanted to lift up my son, who is in jail right now for his 4th DUI. His sentencing is tomorrow. During his time in jail, over 2 months now, he has given his heart to God. He has written me countless letters and I can see his growth, his desire to change, and his desire to grow closer to God in those letters. Lord, I lift him up to you, I pray that you will continue to wash him clean, heal him, and that he will continue to seek your face, now and when he is released from jail, out in the real world. I pray for strength for him, to endure whatever time the judge sets for him. That he will just continue seeking you and growing in your love, Lord. I know you are the healer, the protector, the provider, Lord. I have complete faith in you, and leave my son in your hands Father. In Jesus name, amen.

Submitted by Mary on 1 Mar 2007

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Dear God, I have the faith that you are the ultimate healer and deliverer of my weary soul...God i pray that you forgive me my sins of masterbation, pornagraphy and having multiple boyfriends....wash me as white as snow...instill in me the passion to serve and obey you...fill me with the holy spirit and grant me the grace to resist tempataion and be alive for you Lord Jesus. Amen.

Submitted by abrema on 1 Mar 2007

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Dear Lord, I am so sorry that every time i am with my boyfriend, we dishonour you and go over the boundaries you have set for us. Your ways are right Lord Jesus and it must hurt you every, time i ignore you when you are speaking to my heart, telling me to stop. I am trully sorry Lord and pray that you will work miracles Lord to help us honour you and be pure and Holy for You. In Jesus' mighty name. Amen

Submitted by SAM on 25 Feb 2007

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PLEASE GOD TAKE THIS TASTE FROM MY MOUTH PLEASE GOD PLEASE TAKE THE DRUGS.CIGARETTS,AND ALCOHAL FROM ME IT'S NOT REALLY ME ITS A SIDE OF ME THAT I THINK HAS TO MUCH CONTROL OVER ME,BUT I'M ASKING YOU GOD IN THE NAME OF JESUS PLEASE TAKE IT FROM ME I WANT TO BE WHAT I WAS HERE TO BE AND I KNOW IT WASN'T AND ADDICT.

Submitted by DIONNE on 20 Feb 2007

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